Me, Myself And I

Once again, I seem to have taken an absence from my blog. My head is currently filled with so many thoughts and emotions that it has been almost impossible to put them to one side and focus on a post.

So instead of attempting to banish everything from my mind so that I can write clearly, I've decided to use my thoughts and channel them into this post.

I've used the title 'Me, Myself And I' because over the last few days I seem to have lost my way a little bit and although I promised myself that I would make a conscious effort to focus on my own happiness, I am definitely not doing this.

Recent circumstances have led to me becoming quite a weak person and too dependant on other people. Although there is nothing wrong with each of us experiencing moments of weakness and the need to rely on other people, neither of these things sit very comfortably with me. I've always been a fairly strong individual and haven't let my emotions get me down or hold me back, so feeling weak and reliant is not something I enjoy.

I think that the image above is wholly accurate in it's statement; We cannot expect others to love us if we do not love ourselves. If we don't appreciate ourselves and care for how we feel, how can we expect other people to appreciate and care for us? Simple answer; We can't.

With regards to one or two aspects of my life, I feel that I know what I want. But with these decisions comes many a consqueunce.
By wearing my heart on my sleeve, I have put myself in a vulnerable position, despite being wholly aware that I'm more likely to get hurt rather than end up happy.
Why am I doing this? Because I am experiencing severe levels of weakness and am yet to find the strength to put myself first and to love myself.

So, what am I going to do about it?!

Well, I need to get out of this rut because I am a true believer that life is too short to spend time being unhappy or worrying about how things are going to work out.
I need to find the strength that I know I possess, and in turn, prioritise my feelings and not allow others to mess with them and hurt me. 

In order be loved, respected and appreciated, I need to be capable of loving, respecting and appreciating myself first. 

For the next few days, I'm going to attempt to take time out from worrying about other people and instead focus on how I feel about myself, and realise that the most important individuals right now are me, myself and I.