It's The Simple Things In Life..

Reading back over my posts, there seems to be a bit of a pattern  of feelings and emotions hiding behind my words.

I have always been someone who reads in between the lines, and I can often be found guilty for making meaning out of nothing. This is why the way I write is almost code language; If you deconstruct it enough you will find that almost everything I say is a metaphor for how I am feeling at the time of writing.

A friend of mine who clearly knows me too well, took one glance at my posts and knew that I was writing the way I was because of my dislike to my recent single status. They saw instantaneously that my words are a way of helping me cope with and understand my feelings and that I'm using them as an aid for recovery.

I like to think that I have stayed pretty upbeat with what I have written, and am yet to become dramatic and claim that my life is over. But I suppose most people are inspired by their experiences, and this is clearly an experience that has inspired me to write.

So, let me explain why 'It's The Simple Things In Life' is the title for my most recent post.

I've come to realise that I don't want to become someone who asks for a lot in life. I don't mean that I won't ask a lot of myself as I take my journey through life, but I don't want to ask a lot from other people.

Once again, I seem to be writing ever so slightly in code. Sorry - Bad habit. Let me try and say what I'm trying to say without hiding behind what I type.
Basically, I don't want to rely on other people for my own happiness. I'm fully aware that I will never be free of peoples opinions having a slight impact on me, but I don't want to  rely solely on the hope that everyone will be nice to me and about me just so I can feel happy.

And to deconstruct that even further, I don't want to rely on a man for happiness. When was it that women decided that we needed men in order to be happy?!

I know that I can be completely happy by myself but I suppose I have forgotten that as it's been a while since I have been fully on my own.
I think that being alone is something I've never really thought that I would enjoy. And if I'm honest, a part of me hasn't enjoyed it over the last couple of months, but I'm slowly beginning to see that there are positive aspects to it as well.

But still I haven't written about the simple things in life..

All I want is someone who fights for me, who will go out on a limb to make me happy and treats me with respect.

I'm not saying that I'm looking for that right now;  'Me time' is certainly what I need at the moment, but it's simple little things like that which I look for.

But I'm not going to wait for someone with those qualities to come along in order to make me happy; I make my own happiness.